Emotions mixed up

I am going crazy soon..
Why am I doing this? PROJECTS PROJECTS~!!!!!!
I know this is a process that I need to go through..
but why am I feeling lost?
Is it because I am lazy?
Or this is not what I want to do?

Actually, I do enjoy -
picking up new things in the process of reseraching

But...
Somehow, Somewhere . . . is not so right . . .
Arghh~! (>_<)

I don't know , not sure , what is wrong . . .